| happy halloween, tweeeeeeeeeeeetz! |
[Oct. 31st, 2009|11:06 pm] |
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18 more days to Japanese A's
26 more days to the last A's paper
36 days before JLPT
and everything will be over and done with and i can enjoy my holidays soooooooooon (clapclapclap)
y'knw what i really feel like doing now? - grab a hot milo
- wrap myself in a warm blanket
- rent a good heartwarming movie
- sit next to B
- rainy night
yesssssssah. but anyway we really suck at times and i get scared most of the time over minor issues like .. the OM etc etc the possibility of my mom lurking in the carpark -.- then again quite funny cuz these are all irrational fears instilled in me since young. shows that my mom's discpline system is damn bloody effective but definitely not a model system. i plead to parents out there, dont let your child suffer and cry so much that his/her whole mind basically thinks about is the terrible sinking feeling of dread when approaching home. i love my dad with the utmost respect given to him at any time. just the need of knowing that at least there's one parent who supports me all the way (L) especially thursday night when it was the last lesson with J5.10 and we had a good dinner@ J8. Met Joshua after that and i had a good couple time with him i love you :) Shitzzz I wish your place wasnt so far away. Really, its like America-Singapore, 22 hours distance difference o.o
Friday wasnt exactly .. good. Except i liked the kovan part okay, i think i only like it when both of us are out of school and we dont have to worry ahah. Came back to school and had a good time talking to Candice, Dom and Joshua with me.
Candice, wouldnt have gone through everything w/o you these few months.
PW OVER IN A WEEK'S TIME OMG HANG IN THERE KIDDOS!!!!
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| 27102009 |
[Oct. 27th, 2009|11:48 pm] |
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DAMN. exhausted mentally
tiresome week
WR
OP slides
OP script
Japanese fest
Math Tutorial 13
sometimes you just feel like, wtheck
i need sleep omg cranky yuki isnt a pleasant sight
time to listen to Lucky
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| If we could dissect a love anatomy |
[Oct. 24th, 2009|09:50 pm] |
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everyone have disputes anywhere anytime
we could try being the paradigm for all those beings in love now
but there's no such definition in anyone's dictionary for love to be a perfectly flawless relationship
beautiful, yes but perfect, no
yet again all these tiffs that we may have are destined to build our r/s stronger im sure
If our arms aren't strong enough, we'll rip the roof off with our hearts.
If the road is dark, our dreams will light the way.
If there isn't space in the back, we'll make space in our hopes.
Pack a bag with everything you want to keep and leave the rest behind.
Because I'm coming to pick you up.
@ pleasefindthis
remember i always tell you that i love the rain esp whenever we are on the phone?
cuz it's one of the many memories i have w you, how we ran through the rain early in the year when we were just friends
everything that reminds me of you, i love them
just like how i love you
except that right now comprises of so much more and who knows maybe all our memories will build up to X to the power of infinity?
its difficult to express the immense pain and sadness i felt when the bout of helplessness just sank into me
and this sentence kept flashing through my brain
how the hell am i suppose to convince you?
but we've worked our way around that
and nothing's more comfortable than having you by my side now and just whispering into each other's ears
the last time you held my hand (ytd) i felt like crying
the next time you hold my hand i will murmur a secret to you which i tell you everyday still
we have much more substance than this
more than just a mere relationship
oh and i found something that was so true
made me laugh ahaha thinking about this, i think you'll laugh too
but basically to end off this ........
♥_________________________________
PW is honestly killing me
i felt so bad towards trang on friday and im making it up to her for making her wait up for me
KEEP GOING BABIES
i hate math. need to finish integration tutorial by tomorrow?!?! ugh.
math you're the death of me
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| 18102009 |
[Oct. 18th, 2009|10:50 pm] |
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weekends are meant to us to recharge
but its mostly times when i end up having conflicts w my family
my dad refuses to return me my phone and im stuck using the current one
he's being bloody ridiculous and im not going to get myself worked up right now cuz this morning was pretty shit itself
i just hope he does realise that all this unreasonable decisions that he makes are affecting me alot
and when i say alot, i really mean it by alot
im not going to start swearing and be crude okay chillllllll im talking to B now :)
and in maybe half an hour's time i shall call B and have a goodnight's chat w him
its like when i dont feel the love here at home
B gives me his entire love and i feel real happy cuz ive got him
like i said he's godgiven and in every way im lucky to be able to be in love w this boy.
i sincerely love him from the bottom of my heart
& a form of escapade for me to have a reason to live life to the fullest
im going to accept God
a promise that i made before promos
Accept God.
this is so true, how sad humans are really
AND THIS OLD MAN IS DAMN CUTE AHAHA. declaration of gayness!
i want one of these!
i swear tumblr is damn addictive i cant stop surfing through the pictures ^^
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| 16102009! |
[Oct. 16th, 2009|09:25 pm] |
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Promos results are out and im promoted!! omg i was really happy today and thank you B for holding onto my hand and providing me support the entire day today while we were getting back results. you proved your love and i cant explain in words how touched i felt today^^ thank you for supporting me throughout the promos period when we werent together yet but you kept me going on every single day and after promos, you kept me sane. celebrating postresults with you today was good, in a world of only 2 of us and i didnt care about anything else in this world except that i had you by my side and i knew how safe i was. you really make me feel so loved. happy one week baby i love you :) and for many more months to come. one reason i was afraid that i might get retained was that if you went on to jc2 and i was stuck in jc1, i'd cry cuz it'd be so weird if i had to see you from afar and no longer side by side. but you know what, we'll be in s11 together again next year woohoo along with clique. im going to pray for august yes i am. but overall im very proud of clique, especially jingkai who kept whining about getting retained and turned out, he did so well. AHAHA. and of course baby, you did so well this time round again. im forever proud of you ♥
i told my parents my results already and i feel quite relieved, a huge load off the heavy heart that ive been burdened with the past few weeks. they are okay with my results! 3 cheers for that hehe. oh but you know what im really happy for alex del etc see you guys in j2 babes :) our morning gang hehehehehe.
baby, looks like your shoes but the other doesnt look like mine :'(
your love conquers my fears ♥
& finally........
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| 14102009 |
[Oct. 14th, 2009|10:50 pm] |
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im feeling super scared now
need B so badly right by my side
i wont be able to sleep tonight and neither tomorrow night
im damn bloody scared
God please please please please. just PLEASE help me through this.
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| 121009 |
[Oct. 12th, 2009|11:18 pm] |
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today was both good and.... bad.
good cuz i had the whole day spent with B.
bad cuz we went through econs question paper during econs lecture and read through bio marking scheme.
news spreading in SA is damn fast. i need some getting used to. shifty eyes, fingers pointing. i dont like that but i guess not much of a choice.
in my previous post which was locked, i mentioned certain stuff.. but i realised im quite happy that my buddy's my B now :) Cuz compared to everyone else, he knows me the best and understands my situation ♥
we'll be happy and i love you B ♥
today's ME lesson was damn hilarious: dating guide LOL
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| B ♥ |
[Oct. 10th, 2009|10:07 pm] |
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today went for ms choy's wedding. and she was amazingly beautiful :) up close with a bride for the first time ever omg i was like, woah she's really a fine sight i'd be proud to marry a wife like that.
and i had the whole day with ♥.
it was good. (and i cant seem to fit in anything else into this post anymore than i want to)
B, ♥
I'm feeling awfully tired right now and i really dont know why. Need to finish up i&r!!!!!
OH and I met DAVID NOEL FONG today !!!!! havent seen him for damn long lah omg and then this chickenhead comes strolling into mosburger and im like !!!! and he couldnt recognise me at first :O my dad thinks that he should cut his hair. "weird hairstyle" HAHAHA. and my sister said, "puny".
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[Oct. 9th, 2009|12:30 am] |
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its a nice date today, 9th october 2009 :)
and my 8th october ended on a pleasant note.... :) yes, only you and i know why ^^
im going to think tonight
i dont think i can sleep
this is how it feels now
thumpthumpthump
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| giving and forgiving |
[Oct. 3rd, 2009|11:30 pm] |
I intended to write dedication posts for each and everyone of my clique, AS PROMISED. but so far im only done with xiaoxuan's and joshua's
im really not the sort who can type out so easily wtv i want to say so i think im going to plan it all out on paper first and blog it again another day (L)
im tired, shagged still. shall turn in soon.
goodnight world. |
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| i know im not supposed to but |
[Sep. 29th, 2009|10:07 pm] |
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the thought of getting promoted or not really gets to me and its not doing any good to post promos joy where everyone can breathe because somehow, i feel like i cant breathe still
why wont my mom loosen her grip on me
its getting on my nerves but im trying to bond with her more now that theres no school for these 2 days
im getting abit lonely here even though ive got friends i know this sounds..................
needs school to start so i can see everyone again. why do i feel like im living in a prison cell with only a tiny opening to the outside world
(blinks)
im supposed to be happy after promos but im feeling quite dazed out
david's right, you feel at a loss after exams |
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| bet on your balls: but ive got no balls! |
[Sep. 25th, 2009|02:48 pm] |
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IM ALIVE STILL. and it's been 3 days of exhaustion, 72 hours of hell, 4320 minutes of absolute pain
but survived survived survived. and living on few hours of sleep a day, coffee and no entertainment whatsoever, is a very depressing thing i tell you. been devoured by books and drowning in the thoughts of "must get promoted promoted promoted !!"
im damn joker lah seriously. people get heartaches when they breakup but i get heartaches from STUDYING. yes studying wts, joke lah. ahahah. okay and im looking forward to tomorrow night hehe. CUZ MELISSA LEE SUE YEN, YES TOMORROW NIGHT, YOU KNOW I KNOW, WE KNOW ^^
im going to have a good break today and i wont touch Math until tonight. i think i deserve a short break first and start cramming all over again. one more paper and it'll be freedom. i dont want to worry about results, yet. forget about grades, studies and im going to enjoy post-exams for awhile ^^
this was how i looked like the night before GP paper like seriously
its been a real trying period but when youve got friends who keep you chugging chugging chugging all the way, you feel so thankful the pain just goes away :)
amanda, my inspirational guru 8)
jeraldine who stays up to study w me
candice who's forever keeping me company and making me feel never alone w her texts
joshua who sends me an encouragement text once a day
xiaoxuan elissa doreen nigel who keep telling me to chill everyday ahah
samantha who makes me laugh over stupid things
and especially..... delphine alex megan every morning. plus been studying w delphine more recently for Promos which is good :) remedies that dont taste bitter, dont causes any side effects. wa, i love my buddies seriously :)
im waiting for the caffeine to stop taking effect so i can catch up on my sleep omg
will be back again when i feel like it ^^
tumblr is
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| take me to january |
[Sep. 18th, 2009|11:49 pm] |
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today was interesting and yet........... shitty?
spent time with candice, joshua, yukai, amanda, dom after school when clique all left. unproductive but fun. WHICH SHOULDN'T BE. k my overnight studying session starts NOW.
PROMOS IN 4 DAYS.
this is really bad.
IM FORGETTING ALL THE STUFF I STUDIED OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG.
MEGA PANICK.
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| chemistry |
[Sep. 14th, 2009|11:28 pm] |
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sometimes its real important to know your self-worth.
and when your mind is filled with questions that keep rambling on in your tiny brain that seems to be stuff with bio, chem, math, econs. you feel like its too puny to contain everything; frustrations, unsatisfying events etc.
i want to know certain answers but i know its not the right time now to even open my damn mouth to ask. wait yuki, wait till the major exams over then when grades are out and im confident that i'll get promoted, maybe i'll pop the question?
my self-esteem is rock bottom.
and studying is no joke either. everyone's mugging away like maniacs.
maniacal world,
it's getting real scary o.o |
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| geekzttm! |
[Sep. 14th, 2009|10:57 pm] |
i suck in using tumblr. but i love the pictures there.
im really hating life alot now. theres so much ongoing shit and so much things im damn frustrated about. not family this time, mind you.
GIVE ME A BREAK.
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| i should post more pictures on lj |
[Sep. 12th, 2009|11:39 pm] |
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sept hols wasnt hols for me at all. imagine being in school for 4 out of the 5 days and studying/consulting. this better be worth it i swear my balls i'll be damn upset if it doesnt show in my promos grades :'( but i liked friday besttttttt ahaha had consultation with Del and Ms Kuek really inspired me to work hard for Bio, thank god!!!!! And studying with Timotheus was good ^^
tonight im taking a good break to destress and tomorrow gear up agaaaaaaain. yesterday bumped into Qianyi at changi airport ahaha singapore's such a small world it's damn funny meeting everyone here and there. but sending off my dad was kinda saddening. all we could do was to wave at him from across the emigration and through the glass windows. i miss my dad already even though he's been gone for barely a day.
ive been falling asleep texting candice every night. and talking to candice really kills my loneliness :) hahah. thanks alot cancan <3
but anyway other than anything else, i just pray hard to do well for promos and get promoted. i swear i'll give anything to get promoted omg. |
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[Sep. 5th, 2009|11:48 pm] |
everything happens for a million reasons you knw.
how nice. come and go. |
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| in times when you need friends |
[Aug. 31st, 2009|11:21 pm] |
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talking to gretchen about friends. how friends in crescent are the kind that will stick through.
Gretchen says:
ah.. oh well. but yknw i think we'll all grow up to be those
meeting up when we're really old
and working and married kind
and then still being friends
despite everything. hahaha, that's what crescent makes me feel now! lol
groundbreaking says:
HAHA yeah
exactly !!!!!!!
i really hope so you know
im always talking to gretchen when im real troubled ahaha. (L)
some friends are just meant to be.
people like geyi wenxuan nigel samantha gretchen.
yeahyeahyeah. |
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| cautions. |
[Aug. 30th, 2009|11:46 pm] |
draw a line and stop right there.
stop stop stop stop stop. |
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| kill the messenger |
[Aug. 30th, 2009|11:13 pm] |
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weekend's been boring. study study study. but for the sake of promos, must keep on!
friday ended well :) i felt quite shit the entire friday but after guitar, had a good talk with a friend until 9 and felt much much better. ahaha. and i really got to know this friend slightly better which was good in many ways.
elissa said this to me and im going to keep it in mind. "dont think too much cuz you'll only get your hopes up too high."
i think elissa's like my wisest friend and my emo-talk partner :) ahahah.
okay tmr teacher's day, total waste of time just going for celebrations and back home again.
study study study. even estella's skipping school tomorrow, but cj's mad anyway, keeping their students till so late :O
all the way luvvvvs! :)
versatile moods that swing me like a pendulum with no influence from gravity but an irrational movement that perpetuates this feeling.
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